May 12, 2010
Something snapped into place last night while i was watching Herbie Hancock perform with Dee Dee Bridgewater & the T. Monk band tonight. They are amazing players (of course) but what’s more obvious is the mutual respect that they have for each other on stage. In the master class that they did, the first thing Herbie said was, “When you get on stage, there has to be respect for the musicians. Respect for each other because we are all human beings.” Man, yeah. That’s it. And that’s what cultivates the listening…which many players do not do because they’re all wrapped up in their own ego.
I realized that my deepest desire in music is to play with musicians that express with love and respect…all these years in China, I have been developing myself (and it’s been truly a gift to do that here), but have felt expressively (mostly) alone. Which is sorta why I’m back at playing guitar and singing by myself at the moment. I’m not dissing on my band members here in Beijing. It’s not that…I realized as I walked out of the Forbidden City Music Hall that when I’ve played with my Chinese band members, I have had a hell of a time trying to cultivate this support/rapport/respect/love in the band. I found myself outwardly & passively criticized, by players because they are fearful of truly expressing from their hearts (note: there are exceptions to this as with everything in life). I want to play with players that understand “together” and mutual support. Culturally, it makes sense that these guys have this modesty that prevents them from really coming out of their human shells. That’s the other thing…that the music scene is MOSTLY guys here – and there is a culturally Chinese MALE thing going on – which as a Western/White woman has been like bangin my head against a great massive wall…
Everything that Dee Dee and Herbie said in the master class is something that I’ve been saying for a few years now in this scene. They said things like:
“You gotta listen and play from the heart.”
“Players need to know the meaning of the lyrics of songs even though they aren’t singing it.”
“We are all bringing our own color to the expression.”
I’ve been trying to cultivate this for years here. Usually, I just get these crazy looks, or dismissed by my fellow players (yeah yeah yeah, crazy white girl that does yoga). So now, I feel very inspired. I am in the right vibe. I forgot that in other parts of the world, the players actually are there for each other, there for me. I forgot about this feeling…but now I remember. I remember my Berklee days, and NYC days…and I am inviting this this into my life again.
Last night after the show, I was talking with Nick, the drummer. He said, “When Dee Dee started dancing, that made me so happy, because I knew I was doing a good job.” Yeah man. That’s right. I love it. Love is the key. I’m not talking about romantic love. Love as in the enjoyment of making something new on stage TOGETHER. That’s why Herbie is so amazing. He cultivates this. We are all playing together, making something…wow, and they really made some cool stuff last night. My favorite has been the rhythm section – Vic, Nick and Hoagie (piano, drums & bass) – they way they play off each other, so much fun to watch and hear. The horns – they are also bad ass. Super tasteful and yummy soloists…but the rhythm section…WOW. Dee Dee, Herbie, just beautiful to experience live. Dee Dee has SUCH an amazing ear. She is present in her listening, for the band, with the audience. She is inclusive and expressive. Most enjoyable to experience. So grateful to the US embassy and the folks that made it possible for me to experience all of this. What a magical 2 days I have had. Inspired.
Motivation – I’m going back to the US for a couple of months to play, to express, to enjoy. I’ll have dates up online soon. Peace, Love, Light, Ease…
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